anvil
i think what was surprising was to see or realize how many are actively involved in the partying. i swear i wasn't raised in a bubble but i never would have thought THAT many people were willing, ready, available at all times to go down the path. yeah, i get the gym and for whatever reason the gym seems more "normal" of a choice to me.
if you haven't been in the big wide world of drugs and alcohol up close and personal before--and it's covered up with pretty people and suits and ties, too--it just takes a while to "get it." i wish it came with a neon sign and an instruction book for newbies but it doesn't. so when you come out on the other side of it whenever it happens--you really just don't know what exactly happened.
or maybe it's just me. and that's ok, too.