Time to leave the pity party! So your husband's angry and he's got the right to be. You're not going to earn much trust back in a month when you've abused his trust for so long in the past. Trust takes a long time to repair and once you break it you'll never fully get it back. Be confident and have a feeling of self worth for the sobriety time you have. You're doing what a lot of people think is impossible. He can be angry but no matter how mad he is it won't take away from what you've accomplished. Your sense of self worth should come from within you, not from the validation from other people. Lift that chin up and remember that your opinion of yourself is what matters, not the outside opinions of others.