Thank you both. I had a recent episode where I used profanity in front of my daughter, and did several others things that I was told that I did, but don't even remember due to blacking out. The guilt and shame is weighing on me heavily, which is a feeling I have a lot after I drink. It's one of the reasons I am attempting to make steps to be sober. Not to mention I don't want to break my family apart. I do have a good wife who has stood by me this far, but like anyone, she can only take so much. So I am at a crucial point in my life and need to make a change. Tired of being hungover, guilt ridden, and drunk every other night.