Hi Grok. If you want to stop, you can. Just don't take that first drink.
Will it be easy? No. Will it be worth the pain? Definitely.
I'm 15 days sober and I haven't felt this good for years. I was drinking 3-7 days a week for 20 years. First week sober was physically and mentally drop dead awful. After that it started getting easier every day.
I stopped cold turkey and the only help I had was this site. Everytime something frustrated me I came here to post and read posts and didn't stop until the cravings did...
I hope you'll find your way. We'll be here to help you