Back again...
So the site tells me it's been 3 years since last time I was here. Still having problems with the binging. 'Controlled drinking' isn't a phrase my brain seems to know or compute. After two 3 plus bottle of wine nights out in the last couple of weeks I've decided enough is enough. The last night out on Thursday almost cost me my 5 year relationship. Combined with the citalopram (celexa) and depression itself i can't cope with the memory loss, 'fear', shame, anxiety and physical symptoms that stay around for days after one of these nights. Need to try and do something different.
It's the third day so far and I'm a bit scared of a sober existence...a bit of hope there too. Ill fake that for now!