Hi noexcuse. That's why I finally just stopped trying to pretend I could ever control what I drank. Every single time I ended up feeling like you do now, and as Carl said - each time it got worse. You never have to feel this way again - here's where it can end - and your new life of freedom from alcohol can begin.
Try to remember how you feel right now - unfortunately, the memory dims as we get sober. We need to remind ourselves of the hell we go through.