For me alcohol just created more and more problems to drink over. It was a vicious cycle. Drink, do something daft, drink to forget. Do something daft. Drink to forget.
Now there seems to be no more 'daft things' to drink over and forget now I have given up alcohol. There is not the need to numb myself as much. I think this is because my life is calmer andI don't make mountains out of molehills which used to give me an excuse to drink.
I have 450 days, I would never go back.
Those thoughts you are having 'one will not hurt' etc is your addictive voice.
We all have one.
Learning to listen out for it may help prevent you from drinking again.
Why not have a read of AVRT and see if you can align yourself with it?
My best to you x