Hi, Aydee, I'm sorry for the loss of your husband and your mother. That is a terrible amount of grief to deal with in such a short period of time.
My husband died 6 years ago, and like you I just collapsed into booze and let everything go.
I think it's wonderful that you had the courage to open up to your doctor.
I'm new here too, but find SR to be a wonderfully supportive resource.
Look after yourself!