I Can't Do This . . .
I can't do this.
My life and how I've gotten to this point at only 23 years old is too long to tell, but every time I try to remain sober I get so irritated and restless and depressed. I can't concentrate. I can't sleep. I can't take any moment to enjoy anything. I can't even explain it. Everything moves at 1000mph and I can't keep up with anything.
I'm so unhappy and dissatisfied and lonely. I have a psychiatrist and a therapist, but nothing helps. I feel too awful all the time. I can't remember when I really enjoyed myself outside of numbing myself with something.
I don't even like alcohol anymore. Whenever I drink I try to throw the majority of it up and take Klonopin to relax to sleep. And then I try again the next day, and the next, and the next, and I feel awful and like I don't belong in this world.