I have lots of days where I don't like sobriety early on so I get it. I have made it to a number of years sober before so I know that eventually I loved sobriety. I ended up going back out for a number of years and have just come back 22 days ago. Right now it's a mixed bag of feelings every day and it's still hard after all these years of being in and out of recovery. But I have to remember why I came back again...for me it was getting scary bad out there and getting worse every day. It's amazing how our alcoholic brain can forget so quickly how bad things were while drinking. When I'm having a bad day sober I have to remind myself that the reason I'm sober today is because my days were even worse drinking.
I think I'm talking to myself as much as I am talking to you lol. I've found myself doing that on this forum. When I share my experience with someone here I am also reminding myself of my past experiences (good and bad).