Hi Mrs C,
I hope you get a good report when you c the doc...you're self esteem is definitely not @ the bottom of a glass I can say that for sure coz even tho I'm a guy, I fell for that lie a lot of yrs & ended up disappointed again & again. The life in sobriety is unimaginable;just give the program of recovery a chance & I'm sure you're family will breathe a sigh of relief that mum is back!
Best wishes