Amanda..I have done the same thing. Unfortunately I think one of the things that got me to drink a couple of weeks ago after almost 2 months of abstaining is reading about relapse in a book about recovery. Our minds are just playing tricks on us. I also know, all too well, how being alone in the house seems like the perfect time to drink and how many times I have "forgotten something" and ran out to the store as an excuse to buy alcohol. Be glad your husband knows the game or you might be able to get away with it. But I also spent years playing that game, hiding my drinking from my boyfriend who wouldn't "allow" me to drink. You have to stay strong, do it for yourself, and my favorite strategy....play the tape to the end. Think about how how you will feel drinking, and the next day, having to start all over again--the regret and disappointment in yourself. We never wake up and say, "OH, I should have drank last night, darn! What a wasted opportunity!"
There is some amazing advice on this thread...I honestly plan to re-read this when I get home from work today and the cravings begin. Thank you
