I already replied to you elsewhere but - you asked for something non alcoholic and you stopped eating when you felt uncomfortable.
What else do you think you could have reasonably done OLL?
I think you're being way too hard on yourself here, especially as you don't know it was alcoholic.
Perfectionism is all very well - with limits.
perfectionism for perfectionism's sake drove me to drinking.
If we never make mistakes, if we never have a misstep, we never learn OLL
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