Thank you for your replies. I know it is very early days so I am going to feel low just didn't realise how low. I've been working today and now face an evening in alone, the sun is shining and I know he is at a BBQ getting drunk and having fun and it cuts me up. I couldn't even face socialising at the moment but he really couldn't care less. Maybe my situation is different from many of you as I'm starting to believe he actually may have wanted out of the relationship for sometime and ALSO has a drink problem. It seems that the things he hated about me only came out when he had been drinking but the things he said were very different from the early rows when he obviously wanted me still. He stated everything revolved around my daughter, I was boring, has aged 10 years (even though we have been together 13!) but the early rows were all around his jealousy so perhaps I am kidding myself that it is just the drink that was the issue. I know it affected the person I am now but also just maybe he no longer loves the person I have become. I am 44 years old but I think he wants someone to go out drinking with and just have fun all the time, real life is too boring for him. The drinking has affected me a lot more than him I think. Maybe he is having a mid life crisis also! I think I'm just sad that I feel like I mean nothing to him and have wasted the last 13 years. And my confidence is rock bottom......