Originally Posted by
vatutin11 
I'm still drunk.
I need to stop doing this. But after it all wears off I seem to trick myself into thinking I'm OK and I can drink and then I do it all again!
I'm a binge drinker. Hardly drink except when socialising. When I socialise I get totally out of control. I can't even mention what I did last night. Screw it I will. I slept with someone who is engaged (a work colleague), made out with another work colleague and spent about $1000 on booze and strippers. Smoked cigarettes (hadn't smoked in two weeks).
Was meant to play footy (something I love), couldn't do that, too hungover.Team lost. Let everyone down. Massive domestic with family, family dinner called off. It's always the same. Anyone else a binge drinker who stopped drinking completely? I think I need to stop forever. I want to.
Oh how you wouldn't believe how much I can relate to you! I went to treatment 2 years ago and tricked myself into thinking I was "cured." Slowly but surely I started to binge drink to the point where I would black out numerous times per week. If you're not there yet, you very well could get there!
I'm not ashamed to say it because I've come to terms with it... I've slept with numerous people i shouldn't have, spent $1000's in one night on strippers, and smoked cigarettes when I was trying to quit all due to this addiction!
The only advice I can give you is that if you really want to stop you need to TAKE ACTION. For me the action was going to an outpatient program and AA. I can't give you the best advice because I'm new to the program (for the 2nd time). But I can tell you that I'm dedicated to it. And there's no fooling the addiction. You can fool yourself into thinking you're ok, or that you can do it on your own. But if you truly know you need to stop (and truly want to), you need to take ACTION. For most of us, if you don't take action it will only progress.
FWIW, that's my 2 cents.