Kaitpalen,
I'm sorry you are going through this. Sounds so very painful and i know you don't deserve it. I hope you know this too. I don't have any advice. As an alcoholic myself I know how selfish we can be when we are in active addiction. I see myself in your mother and it strengthens my resolve to never behave that way again. I hope you can let go of your anger and take care of yourself. You sound like the kind of daughter a women would be lucky to have.