I had to accept the facts.
The "wonderful guy" and the lying, manipulating out of control active alkie were the SAME person.
All I can offer, if this is as good as it ever will be, is that enough for you? Are you willing to accept a life of lies, mistrust, careless and hurtful actions? Are you willing to watch him get drunk daily for the rest of your life?
You've been with this guy for a eighteen months. What has changed in that time?
Alcoholism is a progressive disease. Left untreated, it's only going to get worse.
There truly isn't a damn thing you can do to help him. So why not do the next best thing, and start taking care of you.
The question I would be asking myself, is why am I settling for someone who is NOT available? Why am I accepting his unacceptable behavior?
I don't even know you, and I know you are certainly worthy of a committed partner. Only you can raise the bar for yourself.
Just know we are here to support YOU.