"I'll toss back my next drink in two gulps and then reach for another. I'm certainly not enjoying them at that point, but I can't seem to stop."
Hi Sunshine, thanks for sharing your story. I'd be very similar in that. Once I cross a certain point, it is just automatic drinking for me. Once I'm even near the end of a drink I'm making sure that there is another one ready to hand. Then the depression and regret last a few days afterwards.
I wish you all the best.