Snags, I have been in family situations like yours, and totally get the lack of comprehension with your relatives. Here is something I just want to throw out there. A few weeks back you posted Donals story. How about you look at getting fit to do a half marathon/ fun run some such thing to raise funds for his hospital? It would give you a focus, it would get you out of the house, it would give you a valid reason to not drink and get healthy, and it would keep at the front of your mind, that others have bigger battles than us, and way higher mountains to climb.