I am right at the precipice of losing it all. I was sober for almost 10 years and pulled myself out of a very deep, dark hole. I had it all, and then I began drinking again. Last night I slept on the floor of a unfurnished apartment because my wife kicked me out of our home. I am close to going deeper, and I will, if I kept drinking. But today I have eight days sober and how close I am to the edge has scared the s*$t out of me. I'm lucky to be where I am. I hope that I got off the elevator and don't descend any further. The only way i can be sure I do not is to stay away from booze.