chrissyfletch85

I'm ok! (: Thank you!! Weekend turned out to be all right. Attempted to go to my very first AA meeting earlier this evening and it didn't work out as planned... I left my apartment extra early so I could get there well before too many people had arrived and as I'm pulling up to the building there were, no kidding, like 15-20 people standing outside the door talking, laughing, and carrying on... I INSTANTLY got an overwhelming sense of anxiety not only bc there were so many people, but bc that many people would be listening to me talk and I would have to introduced myself to that many people.. Sounds silly, but I totally chickened out. The only thing going through my head at that point was, OMGoodness I need a few drinks in me before I can face that crowd. I feel like I'm so shy and socially awkward that I couldn't bring myself to stay. Hoping to try again soon.. We will see. Hope everybody else is doing well!!! )