The first month, I had to keep busy, especially in the evenings.
I had to get off my spot on the sofa, smash my favourite glass and turn of the TV.
I did all sorts.
I cleaned, I went to bed early, I came here, I surfed the internet, I read books in bed, cooked things for the freezer, some nights I went for a drive with loud music to get rid of my anger and cravings.
Gradually I did not find myself having to force myself to find something to do.
It sort of happened naturally.
It became second nature to not drink in the evenings or at weekends and do something else instead.
I also wanted it badly. Really wanted to not continue my life sat drunk on the sofa at 8pm in the evening waiting to black out.
The more days I put together, the more I did not want to drink and have to start at day 1 again.
Just keep going and give it all you have got.
It really is worth it.
xx