LivingEgo:
I eventually got used to going to jail on a regular basis while I was drinking and drugging. Found that I could get most anything I wanted while incarcerated as well. Got to the point where I really did not like fellowshipping behind glass, razor-wire or bars, and decided to read the Big Book Chapter "We Agnostics" with another AA member. He became my sponsor and led me into service work through a Home Group. That helped melt away many of my prejudices towards religion and also opened my own door to a wonderful spirituality I've grown to love in AA.
Today, I "visit" jails(to carry the AA message) instead of living in them. I hope and pray you find in NA an inkling of what was offered to me upon my journey into Alcoholics Anonymous and back into my Community & Society. Although I came to scoff, with a degree of ego-chinking, I've remained to pray.
3Legs