I think that is a great point. Rather than arguing with myself, just flush it. But it's easier said than done. I've fought all day. Methadone the past 6 months and sobriety of all opiates/heroin/oxy/methadone for almost 2 months. But I'd kill for even a weak one now (figuratively speaking of course). Maybe I need to find another reward besides being cocky and thinking opiates or pain meds will reward me.