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It is scary, Davey, and I understand you being very concerned.
I just want you to be ok and kick the cr@p out of your AV.
The one thing I'm clinging to here is that a failure in sobriety once every month or two is far better than drinking every day. At least this way I'm not damaging my health. It's not great, but it's better than I was before.
I'm coming to a sad realization that maybe i'll have to use the opiate drugs they prescribed, otherwise I'll just end up drinking to kill the pain anyway. At least opiate drugs won't kill my liver and other systems and the doctors will be on top of the amount I'm using as they usually require you see them every 1-3 months for a review.
Maybe it's just time I bite that bullet. As my condition worsens I'll just be facing even more pain anyway.
I'm off to bed, hopefully sleep will come to me despite the pain. Thanks for listening guys.