Hi MidlifeCrisis
No one hates you, how could I ever hate a fellow Januarian?
While we understand that until you go to detox, you need to maintain or you could get some serious seizures with benzos, we are all very concerned about you posting about a "last" binge and some possible denial.
We all have walked in your shoes to some extent, for us addicts, when we are in active addiction Denial is truly a river in Egypt and unfortunately denial can be deadly.
Please stick around and read people's stories then go to detox. I truly look forward to you coming back clean and sober and in recovery.
I wish you health and happiness (hey, don't roll your eyes but it works if you work it) and it is right around the corner.
