Noone hates you MLC.
Everyones worried about your kids - including you, I know - but honestly? sometimes what you post here doesn't even make sense.
It makes me wonder how in touch you are with reality and how you are on a day to day basis, let alone how you'd be in a crisis.
Kids deserve a responsible adult.
I know you want to be that.
If your addiction is making that difficult right now, you need to make alternative arrangements, even this close to detox.
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