ooop i didnt meant to click send on that last post,I hadnt finished,was a mistake,sorry. Anyway, I cant get through to him that Im not the answer to all his problems or the quick fix. He cant afford regular therapy, so basically he has no professional help. Hes not honest with his medical dr cos he doesnt want his pain med prescriptions to stop. I feel like Im watching him die and theres nothing i can do about it, but at the same time I refuse to believe thats the case. There has to be something that can be done isnt there? I have to have hope as does he,otherwise what is there? So many hurdles to jump,not sure where to start,and if i can encourage him to jump aswell or do i have to push him so that he falls in the hope that he will get up again? so much thinking to do,im scared to go and im scared if i dont. Sorry, guess I just had to vent.