I had the most vivid dream/nightmare last night. Involved me drinking and doing really stupid things. It's funny because I actually never remember my dreams but I remember this from start to finish its crazy. Im hoping it's a sign. I've a G.P's appointment tomorrow and I'm looking forward to seeing what I can get out of that. I do think I could benefit from talking to someone so I shall see if my GP can suggest anything. Don't get me wrong my life is a complete mess but rather than feel self pity I want to lift this dark cloud from over me. I am hoping and praying that my depression is purely alcohol related I think it is personally because always after a binge I feel like crap. I'm anxious and excited at the same time. I really feel like this is my time to change my life for the better and start living it for myself.