I try to rarely use the term "normal" but I can say that your experience sounds very typical. Early days and weeks are interesting and challenging with so many ups, downs, emotions, racing thought, etc. Unfortunately that little voice saying that maybe you can have a glass of wine or a beer like "normal" drinkers is also very typical. Don't fall for it! So many of us have. I did twice. Maybe I am sheltered but I personally have not yet met a peson who reports being successful at that. Such a torturous approach too, always trying to moderate, plan your next "normal" drinking opportunity, trying not to cross that line, etc. Much better and more liberating just to be done with it completely IMO. I simply choose to not drink. Plenty of "normal" people make the same choice for a variety of reason.
Stick with it. Things get better.