Hi Kasia
I found the first few weeks utterly miserable - I was depressed, irritable, restless, tired.
Early recovery is pretty rough for many of us. We're craving what we're missing and we feel pretty dreadful physically and emotionally on top of that.
But - sobriety gets so much better. It gets better and better. Try to trust us on that.
Do what you need to do to stay sober through this - why have to go through early recovery again? Early recovery stinks, but you only need to do it once. And do what you can to treat and pamper yourself a bit (obviously without any connection to alcohol).
Hang in there - it really is worth it.
God bless +