Day 4. I am really struggling right now. I was feeling good until I got home. But I am deteriorating REALLY FAST and I feel like I am about to have a conniption fit! I am sick of coming home to a drunk person, clouds of smoke, and loud music every day when I know I am inches away from taking a drink. I have been home for not even two hours and I am about to snap! If home can't be a safe place, then am I just supposed to stay out every day until 2am? They can clearly see I'm angry, but seem to think they should ignore it and that I am being selfish. The only advice I seem to be getting is to focus on myself right now and not other people, which is not bad advice at all, but I can't even think in this environment! I tried earplugs, but it's going through my earplugs. I am going for a walk, but I know when I get back it's going to be the same thing all over again.
