mmhoule. Please check out that AA meeting.I put it off too for a long time.
But once I went I was like I can't believe how simple that was and I had this whole thing just built up in my head that it was gonna be scary and people would be looking at me and I would feel weird.
That is the self centeredness of this illness as referred to in the AA Big Book
Truthfully people are not thinking about me, I am not that special. Most people are thinking about themselves.
Just get off your booty and go. It's one hour of your life and an hour that could definitely give you some hope and relief. I found I was home when I got to a meeting. they are the same people that are here posting.
I found when others talked that the fear just melted away, these people understood me and I was not alone anymore. C'mon quit putting it off. It's one hour. You don't even talk. Just sit in the back. You know how many folks go into meetings everyday. No one will know if you are new or not.
I'm rooting for u!