Avalon, so proud of you....you are not silly at all, my exabf left me almost six months ago, and I have so many xsss written all over my calendar for the days I was able to stay no contact....but the very best part is this month I've made it to 32 days, that's right 32xs on my calendar and yesterday was his bday...and guess what I put a Huge X on my calendar. You got this Avalon......way to go!!!!