Yup, your recovery is showing, all right!
It takes practice to learn patience, and how to live with uncertainty. But the rewards are great. Sometimes I get this overwhelming urge to find out what is going to happen with something, so I can jump in and "manage" it, but with time, I have found that many things work out much better when I just let them be and let things develop in their own time.
You're doing great--keep it up!