Hammer dont worry I'm not taking offense and I think a part of me has a little danial left in me like "he's not like that".. My Fiancé has never gone to jail for his use and has had enough money through his job to keep up his habits.. He's a functioning addict until he started freebasing coke.. (I guess it's considered crack).. He used that for only a month and his health was on serious decline mentally and physically. I DO want to go to a meeting but have issues with crying.. I'm a weepy person and know ill cry or something and get embarrassed.. I'm going to go to a meeting soon though!