Hey Endstage, when I read your post, I totally related to the body rejecting the alcohol part. I've been battling addictions and alcoholism for about 1/3 of my life, and as I aged closer to now, my relapses got worse. I remember so many times where I continued to drink until my body would no longer accepted the alcohol. It soon became nightmarish relapses to where I wanted to die. I got to that point where I could keep drinking/using, kill myself, or start again on recovery. Let me tell you that I tried all three. When I couldn't drink/use, most of the time, it was because my body would not accept it anymore. Although it sounds horrible, attempted suicide is part of my story. I tried that route, but I even failed at that. The only option that I had left was to get back on the path. It truly was and still is hellish.