Welcome and keep coming. Your post is a great remember when for so many of us. Try to remember this post if you think ‘IT WASN’T THAT BAD” after a period of being sober. Recognizing you have a problem is a positive jump towards getting sober. After resisting some years ago I jumped onto AA meetings and continue to this day. My feeling is if it works don’t fix it. A lot of good people there to help. BE WELL