Well, here I am another 30 days but far different than my last 30 days... I will not be running to AA to get a chip or making a nice dinner for myself. I am just glad to be in a new sober life. Maybe I will celebrate 60 days. Still mad about the 5 glass of wine night. If not for that I would have had over 2 months....
Anyway, I have been feeling oh so sorry for myself. As previously stated I am in "self reflection" mode. I feel I should have been a better mom and [B]
I should have however, I was a pretty good mom for my age. I was in my early 20's when I had my daughter and I made some mistakes. ALOT of mistakes but, even when I only had her three days a week I tried. The last 3+ years it has just been me and her. It was a tough adjustment and I need to give us both some credit. We are doing ok.
I should never have screwed up my career and ended up with this pointless job. But I did. Stupid DUI 10 years ago... and the list of shouldn't have's goes on and on.
However, I am working on forgiving myself and better yet, accepting who I am. I know that I will never drink again. It is not me. Soberlicious, you are amazing. When you telll your story I compleatly understand. I become someone else when I drink and I really dont like that person. Growing up (at 36) is hard.
So, didnt want to hijack anyones thread... (Nonsensical I was eyeing yours for a hijack...lol bc dont you know its all about me...heehee) but, thought better of it and moved it over to mine.
Cheers to 30 days.... ok cheers with fancy glasses and NA beverages
