113 days - the desire seems to have increased
i am glad i made it this far, i have a sponsor and am working the steps, go to meetings 4 to 5 times a week. i do see some of the promises coming to fruition. lately though, i feel i am just going through the motions and almost, bored. i know this sounds foolish to you more seasoned vets. knowing that i cannot escape reality and get blasted to oblivion sucks. but, i don't want to go back to loss of self respect and crappy life again. 2 months into recovery, i got a really good job, however, dealing with other people's moods and the like just sucks sometimes. this past weekend, the thought of drinking was very strong.. i did the right thing, called my sponsor and went to a meeting. i thought by this time again, the desire would have lessened, when I had 18 months 3 years ago, it seemed easier... lol.. i'll quit nagging. thx for reading.