Originally Posted by
Bluetiger 
It's now almost one and i can't sleep thinking about it. Will I always have these desires?
These were the times when the last 3 lines of AA's HOW IT WORKS would go through my head:
(a) That we were alcoholic and could not manage our own lives.
(b) That probably no human power could have relieved our alcoholism.
(c) That God could and would if He were sought.
It was times like these where I "asked His protection and care with complete abandon"
No, you won't always have those desires, keep close to the oldtimers and your sponsor.
You said in your original post that you were "halfway there".... halfway to where?
All the best.
Bob R