I'm not an AA person either, but I do find it helps to work the Steps and talk to people. I don't love it, but nothing else has worked for me.
I'm glad you're back. It's really tough quitting on your own and most people can't do it. Many people have remained sober through the community here on SR. AVRT has also helped a lot of people.
Life is so much better sober. Waking up without a hangover never gets old.
You are precious and deserve a good, sober life.