Please don't EVER feel like you should be ashamed for what's going through your mind! We have all been there (and still go there!) You are fed up and only one thing will change that. You've got to take the leap and quit using what you use. It will not be fun, and you won't like it for a few weeks, but it does get better. I'm on day 16 of being sober and it's the best feeling in the world. Two weeks ago I would have never said that. I would have demanded my pills and told ya off. I'm here to tell you that it really does make a huge difference the more time that goes by, and the more you rid your body of the toxins controlling you. Vitamins help and so does TIME. As addicts, we don't like the time part too much; we're too used to the instant "fix" from our drug of choice. You will know when you've had enough, and since you've been clean before, you know what that will entail. You can do it, and we will be here for you every step of the way. Welcome to the dark side
