Agree with Dandylion.
What are YOU doing to take care of your "health issue"? Have you made the CHOICE to stop drinking? Are you in a program?
Don't just sit back and say, "Wow, I have a health issue so I can be excused for anything that comes out of it." Wrong. People have cancer, but they don't run to the neighborhood grocery store and go buy it, and endanger the lives of others with their incoherent driving in the process.
What have you done to repair the "wreckage and pain" that you inflicted on others?
BTW - we all get old. You can make the choices so that it doesn't "suck".
I'm happy you had a good rant, but on these forum you need to back it up with a good effort of a recovery process. We have many active and recovering alcoholics on this forum, and they dont take the tack you did.