Originally Posted by
3girls1husband 
Deeker- you are right, I don't think I am ready to be accountable or fully committed to sober life yet, I will admit that...But I don't know that defeated is the word or term I would use for getting to that point either.
By the way, I'm a Tarpon resident too!
I know didn't mean to post defeated, got bad feedback for that earlier.
But ya know when I surrendered to my alcoholism/addcition , Victory was right around the corner. For me it's a pride thing that I had to let go of. Letting go of the idea that I could one day control my drinking. Alcohol/drugs had me down for the count. I threw in the white towel, I lost the fight and that's ok Ever been to the Dry Dock in Tarpon?.