3girls1husband

Tonight I have a huge urge to pour "one last vodka tonic", because that is all that is left of the bottle from last weekend.....BUT instead I have been staying upstairs with the kids, away from the kitchen downstairs, and sucking on salted peanuts like they're going out of style!! If my kids were older they would probably wonder what the heck was up with me! My husband is downstairs working in his den so he has no idea I have mowed through a full size bag of peanuts...my lips are killing me, LOL!
Its so silly, but I'm actually getting a kick out of myself at the moment!
Thought I would share

LadyinBC

Good for you! Have you thought about pouring it out?

SnwFlower

Good job on staying strong 3G!! I was wondering the same thing as LadyinBC, have you thought about pouring it out?

kiki26

I was going to ask the same thing. I felt very empowered when I went around my house and poured out all the alcohol

Mizzuno

What everyone up there asked.

bigsombrero

Ditto.

deeker

Why are you keeping it around the house? Do you have reservations about stopping?

27cougar

Keep up the good work lady! I agree with the others, if it could be a temptation for you, I say get rid of it. If it's not there, then it's work to go get it and it is easier not to do work.....if I had a cold beer in my fridge you bet your rear it would be calling my name...

soberclover

Why torture yourself with having alcohol around? Clearly you are one busy lady with 3 girls and a husband....give yourself a break....you deserve it...take care of you and get rid of that trigger!

Weasel1966

I love this post! And I love to suck salted peanuts as well. I totally get the sore lips! once I start I have to try hard to stop eating them. Hmmmmm. Sounds familiar.

sugarbear1

one is not enough.

not for me. I also wanted to know why you haven't dumped it out.

Don't buy more.

Pondlady

Must be contagious.......I couldn't stop eating peanuts yesterday either.....plowed through the can!!! Better than drinking a vodka tonic....I agree with others......dump it down the drain.

3girls1husband

Good question about pouring out the last bit of vodka...well I guess it may sound lame, but my husband drinks, but very controlled and not a problem for him and its really good vodka (Ciroc) and since I haven't shared with him my desire to stop yet, I think he would notice if it was suddenly gone, or he would assume I finished it off....and even though he doesn't know about me trying to quit I also maybe secretly want him to notice I haven't had anything to drink this week and I can casually say I'm trying to cut it out of my lifestyle right now....yes, I know I'm trying to create a perfect scene or scenerio, but I honestly feel I want this sobriety to be "casual" right now even if I am serious about it on the inside. I've stayed away from that bottle all week and I can promise you all right now, I won't touch it...he will surely finish it between now and the weekend, there is only one strong or two "normal" drinks left in it!

bigsombrero

You might want to think about talking to him about this. Or, I should say IMO that might be something to think about.

My crash and recovery were very dramatic, all the shades were opened and the windows too. Everyone saw it, everyone knew about it. I almost died after having three withdrawl seizures.

That tidbit of info is also why you'll notice you get mixed views on things. We don't sound like we have much in common in our habits, so perhaps my suggestions aren't great, but maybe you identify with someone else.

I am just very, very, very cautious about and around alcohol, which is why I firmly believe in keeping it out of the house. I could have never "quit casually" and treat it like a pimple or a cold sore that would just go away. I needed a full head-to-toe replacement of my body and brain. Good luck.

Sally3127

What if your husband buys a new bottle for the upcoming weekend? you need to protect yourself. You should tell home so you won't be blindsided by more alcohol in the house. I know I coild not have it around my house.

Hevyn

There's nothing in that bottle that you need, 3 girls. As we already know, it brings nothing but misery. Glad you have resisted the temptation and are focusing on distracting yourself.

deeker

Kinda sounds like you don't want to be accountable and maybe that is why you have not told him you are trying to quit, so you can go back after you quit without being confronted. Could I be right? Gee , I think we can all relate to that. Making that final decision is very scary and final. It's like giving up the safety net for good . You really have to be defeated. Won't be ready until you are.Are you defeated? If you are, you need to make a commitment and stick with it. Bless you!

3girls1husband

Deeker- you are right, I don't think I am ready to be accountable or fully committed to sober life yet, I will admit that...But I don't know that defeated is the word or term I would use for getting to that point either.
By the way, I'm a Tarpon resident too!

deeker

I know didn't mean to post defeated, got bad feedback for that earlier.

But ya know when I surrendered to my alcoholism/addcition , Victory was right around the corner. For me it's a pride thing that I had to let go of. Letting go of the idea that I could one day control my drinking. Alcohol/drugs had me down for the count. I threw in the white towel, I lost the fight and that's ok Ever been to the Dry Dock in Tarpon?.

3girls1husband

Deeker, yes I went there as a nursing student.....I can literally walk there from my house....