These posts are making me cry. Thank you all so much for your support. I am grieving over my divorce, the death of my drug addicted brother, the death of my best friend, the worry of my younger brother overdosing, and now the abandonment of my axfiance. It's too much to handle anymore. I used to have so much faith in God. He has taken so much from me that I no longer have faith in Him. Thanks for listening. I'm going to an Alanon meeting tonight.