It is so hard to ever made it make sense.
There are two problems here and I say this with the utmost respect.
Addicts are notorious for needing to make everyone around them, the blame and the sick ones. It is defection and a way to protect their addiction. It isn’t personal, they will blame anyone around, especially those who are on to them.
And yet we who watch aren’t all that ok mentally, physically or spiritually. And you do need help, but not because you are any cause or reason why …. And not because you are unlovable.
This takes a toll, and you know I don’t want to point out the obvious, but you really do need to heal, for you, no one but you. And not for any chance missed in the past but for the promise of a future. Yes life is waiting for you, and it will be filled with many endless possibilities.
If there ever was a time to put on your big girl panties and shine it is now.
I can’t even begin to explain how my most desperate of moments was the best catalyst to drive me into getting healthy for me. I was so focused on the pain, hell I think I thrived in it. Actually I did.
So the question now is what can you do for you?
And yes you are most definitely without a doubt worth all your time and effort.