Icandoit..... thank you so much for sharing your story. I sit here and I think what my life would be like if I had free access to opiates and my mind tells me that I'd probably be dead.
I've seen drug addictions steal the life out of two people that I know and I know that I can't get to the point thar they did in losing everything.... my family means too much to me to take the chance of losing over a high feeling.
I need to just be honest with myself and admit that I enjoyed the high feeling I got from the meds MUCH more than the 'pain' it would take away.