KaelaRose,
I agree with everything Lexie said, especially the part about getting your kids away from that kind of craziness.
I understand how easy it is to get sucked into the madness and not know how to get out. My exabf was also abusive to me--hurt me during sex and insulted me terribly all the time when he was drinking. It NEVER got better. It got worse and worse. As he got sicker, he got meaner.
Please try not to drink yourself. It is just going to complicate everything. Firstly, it's enabling your BF. And secondly, it's numbing yourself to pain you need to be feeling to make change.
There is a lot of support available to you on SR, and at Al Anon. Take care of yourself.
DoS